What kind of writer am I? Blog 1

What kind of writer am I? I have no idea, but hopefully I will come to that conclusion by the end of this writing session. I feel like I am the writer that most teachers should fear. My ideas have always been all over the place and I never really understand where I am trying to go with my thoughts. I have learned a few things just in the few days we have had this class. I have learned that if I get blocked that I should do free writing, or I should just go off and start somewhere else. I am also learning that I need to set a ritual for my writing technique. The ritual that I have now is not working out the best for me. I usually write when I am tired and starting to go to bed. This means that my mind is not as where I would like it to be when I am finally able to write. I have two little girls and finding time for anything is hard enough. I know that I need to relax and just let myself go so that my writing can improve. Every time I try to write I hear this little voice always telling me that something is wrong and that I shouldn't be writing this way; or that what I am writing is stupid. The voice also tells me that I am not going to complete what I am writing because it is stupid, but I am losing that annoying voice. I am learning that if I just let go and just write that I will come to find what I seek; and that all I need to do is practice my writing. Even writing this I am nervous and I don't know quite what I am doing. I am learning though and that is all that matters. I went to the library here in town to talk to one of my favorite authors, Tamora Pierce. She told all of us there that the best way to improve our writing is to just keep writing. I am also learning that in this class, so I guess I should take the advice of that she gave us. I am going to stop being so critical with myself and my writing. I am going to turn a new page and see where it takes me. So now I know what kind of writer I am from all of this. I am the beginner who has to learn to let go and just have fun with what she is doing. Hopefully everything will work out the way I want it to.